Diet day, that is.
Yesterday was my first time weighing myself in almost a month. I’m back up to…ugh, I don’t even want to say it! I’m in the 140s again. I think I’ll wait until next week to reveal the number, since by then I’ll be down a few pounds and I won’t feel as embarrassed by it as I do now.
I wasn’t surprised when I saw the number on the scale. I didn’t diet at all while I was on vacation, and in the weeks leading up to it I wasn’t very strict. And since I knew that I would be spending the next three weeks on a hardcore diet, on Monday night I decided to stuff my fat face with Chinese food for dinner. I got a pork lomien combination dinner and an order of fried dumplings. And I ate all of it. (I had to eat it all – I didn’t want to have any leftovers in the fridge to tempt me!)
So yeah, yesterday morning probably wasn’t the best time for me to weigh myself, what with all that chinese food still sitting in my belly, but I needed yesterday to be the *official* start of my diet, and it’s not official without a weigh in. Why the sense of urgency? Well, in exactly three weeks from yesterday it will be Day 1 of my upcoming vacation! I want to get down to 135 for that. So for the next three weeks I am going back on the HCG maintenance phase and will be cutting out carbs completely. Should be fun. NOT!
I had been doing good for awhile. I managed to get back down to 137. But then I started saying to myself, “Summer is almost over. You need to enjoy it.” Which somehow translated into me going to an outdoor creperie with my friend on multiple occasions and eating crepes filled with Nutella and topped with whipped cream and ice cream. Yolo, right?
My problem is that I don’t seem to have a middle ground. If I’m not super strict with my diet then it seems to be inevitable that I will slide back into my unhealthy eating habits. Even with the banana nut muffins I’ve been making – yeah, they’re sugar free, but I end up eating three of them at a time! My New Year’s resolution for next year is to keep the weight off consistently, as opposed to losing and gaining the same 10 pounds over and over again.
But that’s long-term. Right now I’m focused on the short term, which is about 10 pounds in the next three weeks. Totally doable IF I stick to my diet. Which I will, because I’m determined, and when I’m determined like this nothing can stop me. If only I could maintain this focus on a consistent basis, I’d be golden.