I was born and raised in New York City. I got married at 22, which by NYC standards practically made me a child bride. That marriage didn’t work out so well, as I am now 33 and about to be divorced. Was it getting married so young that was the mistake, or was it the fact that I only knew my husband for 5 months before we got married? Hmmm.
By the time I met my husband I had been writing down my “Thought of the Day” on my own personal website for like 3 years. This was way before most people (including myself) had ever even heard the word “blog.” After dealing with some drama caused by me revealing some very personal things about myself on my website, I had created a new, completely anonymous website. I didn’t tell ANYONE I knew in real life about my website. Thus, I was able to talk about whatever and whomever I wanted without worrying about the consequences. I had a nice-sized audience and was part of an amazing online community where I was able to express myself completely.
It all came to an end a few months after I got married. My husband didn’t like me telling the world all this personal stuff about our lives. Even though I never used our real names and nobody even knew who I was, I respected his feelings and stopped writing about him and the things we did together. This inevitably led to fewer and fewer entries. I tried to switch it up and started writing only about politics, but I didn’t have a genuine interest in the subject and that didn’t last too long.
My site had already become too much of a headache to be enjoyable, but I ended up abandoning it altogether when one day my husband came home from work and told me that he had told his boss about my website and given him the site address. I couldn’t believe it. Still can’t, actually. Why the fuck did he do that?!?? It was such a violation. He said he didn’t realize how important it was to me that I keep it private. Hmph.
That was way back in 2002. We’ve been separated for 3 years now, and are getting divorced soon. Last month I decided that I wanted to start blogging again. And so I am.